The Road to RhiDiscovery
I’ve been severely M.I.A. lately.
Life can do that to you sometimes & the more I’ve lived through & been tested, the quieter & more private I became.
Not knowing who’s in my corner, who I can trust or have faith in – anyone feel me on this?
My life has been one hell of a journey of good, bad & why and 2018 & 2019 were no different & yet two of the hardest years of my life.
If you know me a little or a lot, people say things about me being a bright force of energy & happiness, always wearing a big smile & caring for others more than myself.
This brings an abundance of gratitude to my heart, but there’s reasons to why & how I have these qualities & care the way I do.
Behind that big, bright smile & hugs filled w/excitement & love that fuels my soul w/energy is a truth I’ve never really been open with & well, that’s all changing now because
“NOTHING CHANGES IF NOTHING CHANGES”
& whatever helps me continue moving forward & upward, I AM HERE FOR W/BOTH FEET IN!
So, here’s some of my truth… I suffer daily w/chronic body pain & other physical health issues & even more physical health challenges that are still trying to be figured out. I live w/anxieties & panic attacks, depression, PTSD & CPTSD – & if I’m being completely vulnerable & honest, I’m a suicide survivor too.
I’m not proud of it, but I’m not ashamed of it either.
My childhood & adulthood have both been filled w/traumas, emotional, verbal, mental, domestic & sexual abuses, grief, loss, health scares & more.
Throughout 2018 & 2019 I was overloaded w/grief, loss of loved ones, loss of my relationship & a family I created, & a future I had worked so hard to build & invested myself in completely, along w/a lot of physical, mental & emotional health struggles for me & some of my loved ones too, battling toxic people & situations & so much more.
Regardless of what I’ve endured & survived, I’ve always believed in the good, in kindness & in unconditional love – I don’t know how, but I know I’m always incredibly thankful for the strength, courage & heart to carry that & still love people & life so fiercely.
With that being said, I’m doing something that makes me REALLY uncomfortable & is SO UNNERVING to me & that is asking for help & support from others in a serious time of need – in whatever way you can, because every little act of kindness & effort really does help in major ways.
I’ve done A LOT of work so far & continue to w/getting my physical & mental health back on track & the unknowns figured out. I am so thankful to have full time work w/my main business, as well as additional income w/my side business, but that’s still not enough yet to help me get where I need to be.
I can’t do it all alone – community matters & it strengthens you & helps push you to levels of greatness that people need & deserve to reach. So please show support however you can, even if just sharing this post to allow more people to be aware of something really important in this world & your communities.
I know I’m not alone in this journey & so I welcome your help, support & efforts.
Growth is found in the discomfort & struggles laid before us & I continue to fully welcome even more growth now.
In 2020 & this new decade & all the years to follow, I plan to strengthen & use my voice more, have less fear about asking for help when I need it most, to be better at putting myself first for a change, to help & encourage others & give back more, and to do all the things I’ve had in the back of my mind as impossible dreams… I want to achieve those too.
I want to not only help people be more aware of the reality around all of us with health struggles – especially the invisible ones, but I want everyone out there, that can relate to me & my story in any capacity, that has walked or is walking through tough moments in their lives & know that they are not alone & I am here for you too.
I’m not only going to continue to survive, but I’m going to continue to thrive & that is something that makes my heart very happy.
Thank you for your support, kindness & generosity of spirit.
Here are a few ways to show your support https://linktr.ee/RhiDiscovery